I'm Not Sure

I kept having people tell me Happy Mother's Day yesterday since BB lives with me and well, Mr. Bella and I are raising him.

However, I'm NOT his mom. I'm still his sister and although I suppose I have the maternal role, it was awkward. I know they all had good intentions, but still....I'm not a mom and it was weird.

Plus I think it was weird for BB. He still thinks of me as his sister and I feel those comments reminded him that he has shit for a biological mother and therefore has to deal with a sister to be his "mom". I'm the best option for him. Poor kid. I know I try, I think I do okay...but still I hate that he has to have ME as a mother.

One day last week it suddenly hit Mr. Bella that Mother's Day was Sunday.

Mr. B: Ohmygosh Mother's Day is Sunday?
Bella: Yup, cards are in the mail.
Mr. B: (delighted sigh of relief.) What would I do without you?

I'm not sure, babe, I'm not sure!