What to wear, what to wear

Just when I think I have everything figured out, I want to change my mind! I have the hardest time making decisions, and especially when it comes to wedding planning. One would think that deciding upon flower girl, ring bearer, and bell ringer attire would not require so much thought, but I endeavor to make things as thought consuming as possible.

Do you have any idea how long it took me to decide on my dress? Nevermind that as soon as I saw it I fell in love with it. Nevermind that with every button/clasp/strap/pin I loved it more and more and it looked more and more beautiful on me. Mrs. R and Mrs. O were in awe over it. (Actually I think "Oh my god LaLa, I'm going to pee my pants!" were Mrs. O's words). I loved it too. So after 2 fittings of it with Mrs. R and MRs. O, I took back TH. Followed by emailing a picture to Mrs. A, Ta, CC, Amy, Brooke, and even my little brother. (As if he cares!). Then, I took Ta and KT to look at it as I bought it. I knew there was no way I was leaving that beautiful garment all alone hanging on the rack for grimy hands to touch for another weekend. I had to have it!

Finally! A decision. I thought from that point it would be easy to move on. I'd picked out a handful of bridesmaids and junior bridesmaids dresses that I really liked. All I was waiting on was deciding on my dress so I would be able to coordinate styles for a cohesive look. But was it really that easy? Absolutely not! Although I found the perfect dress to compliment mine, in the perfect shade of peony pink, with both bridesmaids and age appropriate junior maids styles, I still could not commit! After much debate over the course of a week, I relented. I knew that it was the one, and everyone loved it!

Besides these decisions, there is one that I've not had much luck at being part of: bow ties. The plan is for J and the little boys to wear bow ties and the groomsmen/ushers to wear neckties. The vision is a blue with a pink something accent, preferably stripes. (Although, at this point I'd take polka dots, flowers, flamingos....) However, we've yet to find that perfect color blue. You can't name a place that we've not looked for ties/bowties. It appears that Brooks Brothers is the leading retailer of choice, yet they still don't have that perfect color of blue. J had an epiphany just yesterday that perhaps he'd just wear the one that came with the tux. After all the trouble of incorporating blue and him being adamant about having blue in this wedding, he thinks he will just wear the one with the tux. I politely told him that we would find a blue bow tie, and he would wear a blue bow tie if it meant me drawing one on his neck with a sharpie. Come on spring line--bring us the perfect color of blue with pink accents.

So back to the children's wear for the occasion: It's not that I question that they will be beautiful in anything they wear, they're just beautiful children. It's just the decision of what you want and choose for the biggest, most important day of your life. I suppose I've succumbed to the high pressure, media hyped, retailer driven, vision of having the most perfect, magical wedding focusing on having flawless execution as if it is opening night of a big performance. I'm sure I'll just go back to my first decision as I have all along. I should really learn to go with my first instinct and be happy with that.